Flashback

So. I have to rant/vent/let it out out. I admit, I spend a lot of my day online. I visit a couple mom fourms. Oh alright, there's about 4 I visit everyday. There is one, a mom one, that while I hate the board, I go back because I have made some friends there, and I like to check up on them. Other than that, the board sucks. I have never ever felt more unwelcome, ANYWHERE. And the worst part is, it is a freaking FORUM! Not a single person there knows me in real life, yet, they hate me (except for the 5 or so I would consider to be friends). Because they feel I made bad choices as a parent! Isn't that funny!

Let's see if I can list what I did wrong. I had c-sections with both boys. TO SAVE THEIR LIVES. But, that was wrong, I should have let my children die, instead of having a section. I had to quit breastfeeding Anson, because my milk disappeared. But, I should have starved him instead of "giving up". I quit breastfeeding Ryden the day of his first birthday. I should have let him lead the weaning process. I don't work, I stay at home, I'm not a vegetarian, it's endless. And yep. Not a single one of these women have met me. Amazing isn't it? That they know me so well online, they can dictate my real life.

The worst part is, I had no issues with a majority of them. Just one (I blogged about that situation before, about my sections & how I "copped out" of giving birth). But, because this is apparently high school all over again, the "leader" hates me, so everyone else has to. I was really close to one of the women, but apparently, she is a follower of the know-all mom (who has 1 child, that is a lot younger than my boys). So now, she ignores me. Deleted me off her facebook, myspace, MSN, etc. Yeah. That was mature wasn't it? (PS - I know, I too, am immature, blogging about it, & making an "issue" over this. I'm just fed up, so don't read if you don't like my whining).

The worst part is the feeling of being ignored. Someone brought up an issue a family member was having, and it was something I had personally experienced, so I offered a tidbit of advice. Every single person that replied to that thread was thanked. Me, not so much. I wasn't even acknowledged. Nice, isn't it? I'm just so over the whole, giggly, wigged out teenager aspect of things. These people have children, and are supposed to be role models. Yet, go around treating others like freaking garbage (it's not just me, BTW, they have done, and do, it to other moms on the board). And yet, people don't get why society is effed up.

Anyway. I'm just so tired of being treated like dirt, and being made feel so unwelcome. I am done high school, and have been for awhile, yet, here I am, in a high school situation. So, I'm done with that board. It sucks, because I have made a couple true friends on there, but at least I'll have my sanity, I suppose. My last visit was last night, and I will likely not be going back. What a friendly board.

(I promise not to be grouchy in my next post, sorry!)